I was looking at an old picture not ten minutes ago. It’s one of myself and my brother and sister taken in 1978, I think. We were ten, eight and five, respectively. We are all super imposed over one another… my profile on top, then my brother slightly turned and then my sister straight forward on the bottom… very themed… our 70’s hairdos, same turtle neck shirts… I remember my mom being so specific with the photographer about what she wanted, after all, it was our Christmas card that year.
I remember seeing it and hating the way I looked. My nose was huge, I hated my hair, I was fat. Funny thing is, now I look at it and think I’m beautiful. I see how my sister and brother have changed. The structure of their faces, their hair color, etc., but it’s still them. They are still beautiful. They are still full of life. I think about our lives and how they’ve changed. We aren’t much different really, still silly, funny, crazy… definitely crazy. As my sister says, “Dearings put the FUN in dysFUNctional.”
The one thing that hasn’t changed is how close we are. We may not talk everyday, or hang out all the time, but I know they are always with me. In the things I say and do, the stories I tell, or how something reminds me of them every day. I get to see them about once a month for birthdays and holidays and it’s always the best time.
This photo reminds me of some of the best and worst times of my life, but I remember the best times. Running around in the summer irrigation, chasing the dogs when they got out of the back yard, Fourth of July parties and pool hopping, spending the weekends swimming and watching TV, eating watermelon outside (so you didn’t make a mess), drinking from the hose, playing Kill the Carrier until Mike Abretske got pissed at his brother Joe, a fight, then the game was over because Mike would run home crying, grapefruit wars, walking for hours on Halloween, sleep overs, haunted houses, the red Christmas Tree, the Christmas tree rebellion, Boomer, Tom Ling, making a concoction, polka dot pizza, the Vectrex gaming system, KISS… I guess I could go on forever.
I hadn’t looked at this picture in quite some time and hadn’t realized how much I missed seeing it. I may not have appreciated it then, but now… it’s one of my favorites.